(Actually at this very moment as I am posting this since it is my girlfriend who is bringing her to the vet-> why? Please read on)
She was just 1 year and 9 months old when she departed us
She was the bravest pup I’ve ever known, fighting against a myriad of disease and sickness before succumbing to a condition known as “Congenital Heart Disease”
I say she was the bravest also because there is a short story behind it and if you guys don’t mind, I’d like to account it here because I want her to be remembered
2 Nights ago, she was fighting for her life and she almost “left” us
Her pupils were dilated and her limbs were rigid and straight
All signs pointing to the fact that she is leaving us
However, after a few moments she suddenly acquired a surge of energy.
My girlfriend and I thought maybe it was the final lease of energy before she “leaves” us.
However she did not go and naturally my girlfriend and I were confused and not to mention sad
Seeing her go through this kind of pain and yet she was so stubborn and refusing to let go although we told her that it’s alright to go.
My girlfriend thinks that maybe there were some things left that she hasn’t done.
(In Chinese culture, we believe that when a person has not done something his/her heart desires so badly, they couldn’t leave)
It then occurred to me that since I was studying overseas, I have not seen my little girl for 9 months now.
I felt guilty as hell and cried like a baby.
And today we decided to end it for her because we really do not want her to suffer anymore
It was the toughest decision we ever made so far
And it was worse for my girlfriend because she has to do it since I was overseas
But we both know it is for the better and this was necessary so that our little one will not have to suffer anymore
She was young, brave, courageous, naughty and cuddlesome all bundled into 1 joyous bundle.
This is her story. This is our Tiffie, our brave little tiger.
**note: Yes I do still feel really guilty for making her wait for me, and the fact that I couldn’t be there till her very end shreds me to pieces. I really hope I can get through this. I know for a fact that there will not be a single day I won’t think about my little bundle of joy.
I hope my girlfriend and I will get through this and hopefully we will find it in our hearts to share the love that we have given to little Tiffie with another one (=
**Here is a short video that I’ve made in her memory (=
Gay I know.. But I'm gonna be lugging it along to UK with me
She says to hug it every night It represents her And by hugging her, I'll get sweet dreams Awwww Love you muchie lar baby!
Anyhow.. Working life is boring Its so mundane Every little thing now seems so fun Yum cha = awesome now
I can't believe when I stop working I'll only have 2 weeks left before I leave for UK I have much plans for myself Ain't gonna close down any doors just yet Just open up as many possibilities as possible and see where it leads to
Many people will say I'm dreaming I'm not realistic So what? I try my best I see where it goes Period
I know getting a job in the UK is hard Especially during such times I only hope that the Olympic Games in 2011 in Manchester will spur the economy Hopefully...
My other plans includes bringing my family over.. I don't wanna leave them back in Malaysia yaya... call me unpatriotic.. but w/e And Baby Girl! You better study hard and join me! And you better bring Tiffie along..
Speaking of Tiffie, I'm starting to miss the little bugger now..
look at her lanci face weih!.. *eh I mean Tiffie =D
I can't believe I have no time to bring her back to my house Working really kills lots of my time And I can't go online as well =s Sigh.. 2 weeks to mess around with Tiffie before I leave )= Oh well at least there is payday... Which is another 238974394923 days away pfft =s I wanna: buy multifxguitarhardcasea7xnightmarealbumbringbabyoutfortreatstakemyfamilyoutfordinneritouch anyone care to donate? =s pweety pwease?
I wanna sqquuuueeeeezzzzzzzeeeeee her =x
In any case, Guitar lesson is cool... Getting better already Starting to learn songs that I can only dream of learning in the past Still have much to learn
My awesome guru is teaching me as much as possible I have to practice more when I get to UK Speaking of which Does anybody know if guitar case counts as a carry on? Does it mean that I will have 2 carry on luggage if I have another backpack?
Oh well... That said, My results ain't even out I'm not really that anxious for some reason I did my best, I know what I answered And hopefully my prediction is right hoping that my average would be +/- 63
Sigh, they are sure as hell taking their own sweet time in marking our papers =s Oh well, back to stoning awhile before bed time Then wake up to the same ol' routine
Tiffie is finally back with me And she is giving me hell of a time keeping me busy! She is so cute despite her naughtiness And I found out that she really really loves to emo like her mummy And she is such an attention seeker! And she loves to sulk =____=
My lil baby =D Just started my guitar lessons And everything is awesome.. Practicing as much as possible Trying to get my notes right and alternate picking
I kinda feel bad that I'm sorta dependent so much on Baby girl this few days The guitar really made me broke >< Tough having no reserves... Feels like I "sek yuen fan" =________= FML Work is gonna change that Gonna spend some cash on family and baby And buy some stuff that I want to add on to my guitar (= I can't believe I'm gonna spend my last few months in Malaysia working But a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do Will try to be out as much as possible at night and weekends And baby found my secret out wtf -_- Fine lo.. no more surprise grarz! That's for being naughty and busy body But I still love you =D
Seriously.. don't you feel like makan-ing her?
I'm leaving you mimi, I'm going to find dada =p
Ngeoooww
Nyahahaha
Gay I know..
I wanna sqquuuueeeeezzzzzzzeeeeee her =x
O Hai
