Finally I've resigned..but they wont bank in the money till Tuesday... Awwww =/
Anyhow, my colleagues and I went out for a simple lunch At Secret Recipe
Here are some Pictures wheeee I wasn't lying when I say they were trying to fatten me -_-
My desk hehe and my ID card (whoa damn random wei)
And this is where I Kill Trees -_-
Me and the Policy Issuance Team [Chin Lee Tzu, Susie, and Yee Kee (my brain washer)] Finally my Team Underwriting Department
Lee, Kak Mariam, and Wan Siong. 3 more people absent lol... 1 MC, 1 EL, and 1 at the bank XD
That is all the pictures that I can snap.. Couldn't get more.. It is an office after all People would think I am crazy or worse.. a spy to go around the office snapping pictures I'll Probably get sued after that haha...
All I've gotta say is I enjoyed my short 2 1/2 months of work.. tiring but memorable You guyz of EB/BA division are really amazing!
Thank You Kak Mariam for being like a Mum to me at the office! and Thank YOU all people at EB/BA division for letting me be part of your family for this 2 1/2 months. You guyz rock!
Well, now to hibernate for a bit and wait for my pay this Tuesday and then... back to hectic studying..... sighhh....... But can't wait to get back to studying la... hmm I miss my friends
Oh Yeah Next Friday!!! Hurry Up already!!! I wanna go Shopping!!!!!!! Gonna spend a little bit for shopping and treat my family to dinner -_-
hehe ahhh.. Getting late... better get to bed or else I'll get nagged haha..
Happy Merdeka guyz!
(*grumbles about the stupid raptai which causes crazy jams for Malaysians.. pokgai betul)
Thanks for being there when I was on my total lowest point of my life last last week. And yet I stupidly forgot your most important (or maybe your anniversary is) Important day of your life. It was totally insensitive of me and you were overseas too. You were waiting to see who remembered and Poof I forgot. I sucked big time there. And nothing I could say can justify that. Big Happy Belated Birthday To You.
I know.. Who has been visiting my blog.. And personally.. I don't really mind it Because everything I say here is MY own PERSONAL ranting As well as my thoughts.
However! For me to write down things, It means that it has an impact on my life. So think about it before going about judging.
And for me to pen it down, It also means that It must have affected my Life alot And something has gone seriously wrong somewhere.. Even if I get into trouble, You can't stop what I am thinking To evade is to Ignore the problem and not deal with it.
Look within first then only judge. I am not talking about anyone in particular. I am just saying. Do NOT judge. Nobody can Judge me except Him. not you, not him, not her not Tom, Dick and Harry.
Above all, Respect my personal space And do not interfere except and unless You see me as being really really really really irrational
Ja~ now that you know what I wanna convey to you. Please feel free to stay tune to my blog where Freedom of expression and letting go of my mind and brain juice RULEZ~
DO NOT JUDGE FOR WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE WHEN GOD HIMSELF SAYS THIS "DO NOT JUDGE! FOR YOU YOURSELF WILL BE JUDGED"
We are all human beings no? So with that... my blog shall continue. Stay tuned!
Now I gotta say this
My Mum Proved me WRONG again. She talked to me about the problem which I did not expect her to. Kudos to her..Seriously... I've been proven wrong this time. And for the first time I am glad she proved me wrong.
All I can say is, I will definitely TRY my hardest. Emphasis on the word TRY. No one is Perfect and definitely I am not. Leave some room for error for me.
Thanks for giving me back my dreams and hope. This Thank You is really from the deepest core of my heart. You have no idea how much burden was lifted from me when you Talked to me that day. Really Thank You!
alot of you asked me to talk to my parents.. talk to them nicely-la...they will understand one.. talk properly..sit down and talk
let me tell you something about "that person"
Once she said NO! its a big FUCKING NO!
even if you beg and cry on your knees at her feet...
its still a big fat FUCKING NO!
trust me..i know that person well enough now....
im speculatin that she doesnt have enough cash to send me and thus she needed a really really really good reason to say no.. well if she told me upfront that they really dont have enough cash i wouldnt be mad at them at all.
but to tell me im underserving.. hahahahaha whatever man
and sadly..by my wrong and mistake in the recent exams.. ive given her that chance. well its my fault now... but hey..think on the brighter side.. my sis can go Taylors now.. or The One Academy.. or maybe Lim Kok Weng!!
Places that i have sacrificed in order to try get 2+1
hahaha how ironic can life be?
i can laugh my shit out now hahahahahahaha ja~or maybe we are too poor for LKW.. so probably its taylors or TOA for my sis then. hahahahahaaha
i vow...i will not be poor like them! i will Swear on my life that i will make sure i have proper family planning do not make shitty investments
thus by doin so i will not end up like them and my children wont have to be me.
but seriously... i have accepted my fate already.... i can laugh and smile with my colleagues today. but deep down inside..i will never ever be the same and i will NOT interact with my family.. TO HELL with allowances and shits like that..if they wont give, I'll beg! I'll work part time..
if they wont even wanna fund my 3+0... EVEN BETTER CHANCES FOR MY SIS TO GET INTO LKW!
and big deal? ill just work... i mean working rm850 a month for myself is quite okay... well slowly climb the corporate ladder..
what to do?
and they shall nvr see my children...if my children asks of their grandparents... i will say they never existed or died before they grew up!
yes im cruel and this side of me is emerging..
sorry again for disapointing all you people with my attitude and behavior. but this is what happens after one goes through a "life changing" experience. ahahahahaa self deceit and centeredness rulez over all..
My Parents "DISCUSSED" and "DECIDED" that I am "UNFIT", "UNDESERVING" for 2+1
Nice.....I have also "DISCUSSED" and "DECIDED" that "YOU BOTH" are "UNFIT" as a parent?
Talk your way out OF THIS POINT... and NO I am not going to BEG and CRY! CHECK YOUR STATS! THANKS FOR THE JUDGMENT THAT YOU'VE PLACED ON ME ON MY FIRST TRIAL THANKS FOR BEING "THERE" FOR "ME" WHEN I NEED IT YOU ARE THE "BEST"
I Know Parents do not have a manual... But I suggest using some common senses! DON'T USE GOD AS AN EXCUSE! PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH!
>>sacrificed so much yet get nothing<< (i couldve opted for Taylor's or SeGi and a Car) >>i know you dont owe me anything but does responsibility ring a bell?<< >>Practice what you preach<< >>Im better off not in this world<< >>You are the cause of my downfall<< >>thanks for the salt but my wound hurts more now<< >>want me to give you a bigger knife to slice the wound more?<< >>DONT I F**KING KNOW MY RESULTS ARE THAT "BAD"???!!<<
I AM A MISFIT FOR MY FIRST BIGGEST "FAILURE" FOR GETTING A RETARDED LOWLY B!
YOU JUST FOUND YOUR WAY OUT OF PAYING MORE! NOW WATCH! THE REAL SHOW IS ABOUT TO BEGIN!
Well lets just say I will probably screw and mess my life out in 3+0 Not too bad an Idea! Trust me...Put me in 3+0 and You will see a shell of me.. I will neither have the passion nor the zeal to study anymore.
I will be like a Lost ZOMBIE.
You want War? I'm prepared to Gamble my LIFE! YOU wanna mess my life? I CAN HELP!
YOU WANNA SEE WHATS SELF CENTERED-NESS !!? YOU WILL SEE! THIS HOME IS NOT A HOME! ITS BUT A SHELL WHICH REFLECTS A HOME BUT ITS EMPTY INSIDE! THE FAMILY IS NOT AS PERFECT AS YOU THINK IT IS SEE THROUGH THE LIES!
THIS IS NOT SO MUCH ABOUT 2+1 ANYMORE!!
YOU ARE DISAPOINTED? SO AM I! IN YOU!
thanks for all the encouragement people... you know who you are..... hopefully this can be resolved fast.. but right now...
THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I THINK OF THEM! AND I WANT THE WHOLE WORLD TO KNOW!! CONDEMN ME! SUPPORT ME! YOU CHOOSE! I DON'T CARE!
So I'm left with A B C........in a frigggin row...
What makes me so angry is... for the first time... for the VERY first time.. i Failed myself. And I freaking Failed for the First time to prove my parents wrong.. which obviously means that they are right. Therefore I must admit.... I Am Friggin Wrong.. zzzzzzzzzzzzz
Gahhhhhh.......Time to restructure and to try my best in LLb...hopefully my parents will keep me in the 2+1 programe...else...I am...well...kinda screwed...
Still don't know how the heck my Economics dropped from A to B though... and though I accepted it already..not sure if my Parents will...its a tough paper...and I have been lucky because I only dropped 1 grade but still.....sigh...
That is all....so much for maintaining my grades........2A's 1 C sounds better than ABC..
ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ.. now I know my ABC next time I won't fail again.
oh a note of edit------
Was back at class for the first time with my friends in like what? 3 months? although some wasn't there and some shifted colleges.... its kinda fun to be back studying with them... nothing beats friendship...and I've gotta admit... I'm getting bored of working....tiring and boring......just wanna get back to college )= cant wait till 29th of August >.<